This Friday I begin yoga teacher training. I’m so excited and yet so nervous. I hope I am entering into this journey with the right mindset and heart. Yoga has changed my life: my body has become strong and my heart has become mindful and open. When I’m on my mat, I feel strong, safe, and whole. Tuesday I was taking my regular Super Flow class. During Super Flow, I kept thinking how I wish my teacher would forget about the brutal “third round’ of the class. I was tired, sad, hot and sweaty. During the third round (because he would never forget about the third round), my teacher did do one thing different: he didn’t play any music. At first I thought, “Holy shit, I’ll never be able to get through this without music!” But then I settled into my breath and the flow. Beautifully and sweetly, the third round of Super Flow was over in what seemed like an instant.
That day driving home, I thought about how life is a lot like the third round of Super Flow. Some days we just flow along, moving from one thing to another. And then some days are just plain diabolical. We simply cannot flow. It’s these days that we wish we could skip or forget. Lately I’ve often thought, “It would be nice to just go to sleep and wake up and it be a year later.” So much hurt and disappointment have filled my days over the past few months. So I made a connection with my life right now and that brutal third round of Super Flow: “Beautifully and sweetly, the third round of Super Flow was over in what seemed like an instant.” I realized that this time in my life is certain to pass by, beautifully and sweetly, just like that third round. For now, I will settle into my breath and focus. It is the third round of Super Flow where I learn the most about myself. It’s this third round where my body says, “I can’t” but my heart, passion, and desire wills it to move from pose to pose. So I will continue on through this life of mine-learning life’s lessons, breathing, and willing my body to move from pose to pose.
